Friday, May 12, 2017

She's not just yours

When Cicily was born she stayed in the NICU at the hospital for a few weeks.  While she was there I greatly disliked having a nurse tell me how best to comfort her (I've since silently thanked said nurse as her tip was helpful for Cicily's whole life) and I refused to wear gloves to hold her.  Cicily was MY baby and I was her Mom.  While I greatly appreciated the medical care she was getting, I did not appreciate that she needed care from anyone besides me.  While I was sitting by her bedside one day I had the distinct, undeniable feeling of the words, "she's not just yours".  Feeling these words did not make me recoil with deep annoyance like they should have, they came with a peace and understanding.  Heavenly Father was letting me know from the very beginning that Cicily was on this earth to be shared with others.  I was not the only woman in her life that would care for her, love her and learn from her.
So tonight I would like to acknowledge, pay tribute and show appreciation for all the people in Cicily's life who she came to be here with.  Our family has great love for all the nurses who cared for Cicily in our home.  We especially appreciate her besties (the long-termers) Kelly, Michelle, Ashli and Joy.  You all enriched Cicily's life in unique ways.  It was by divine design that each of you came into Cicily's life.
Tamara has been Cicily's school nurse for the past 8 years.  She started school with Cicily in preschool and continued to care for her, teach her, love her, and advocate for her the next 8 years.  We consider Tamara to be a 3rd grandma to Cicily.  And she has promised not to stop calling me as she has done every day Cicily went to school to give me a recap so I knew what to talk to Cicily about.
We love Cicily's teachers beginning when Cicily was a baby and JuLee (and her family) came into our lives to teach us sign language.  Then Cis went to preschool and had a wonderful teacher and aides.  Then Kindergarten and 1st grade where she had a master teacher who could whip out accomodations like most of us blink.  3rd grade where Cicily had a teacher so impressed with how well Cicily learned and worked hard to add on to her knowledge.  Then 4th grade where Cicily had not only an amazingly loving and inclusive teacher, but a whole school family.  A school family where kids from other classes said hi to her in the halls instead of staring, where she had a gaggle of girls hanging out with her and talking with her at recess, where she had friends who loved her because they understood and appreciated her.  Where she had a sped teacher who loved her and helped her play pranks and a principal who gave her a hard time about socks and cruised her around campus in a swing.
We thank the therapists who worked with Cicily and helped keep her strong and active.  Cicily loves so many of you for making hard work fun.
We respect and honor the doctors, assistants, staff, social workers, nurses, and hospital workers whose expertise and caring truly gave Cicily the best chances for a great life.  I really will miss waiting in your rooms and throwing around medical jargon with you.
We love our church congregation family who have learned with Cicily and been taught by her smile.  And who have allowed us to serve and and to be served and cared for.  We will forever adore you for giving us the gift of time with Cicily this past month.  Charity never faileth.
I have love for those strangers who smiled at Cicily or gave her extra attention.
And for all who have read this blog over the years for allowing me to share my Cicily with the world.  It may be a small audience, but it truly has covered the world.  And that makes my heart happy to know that Cicily's influence and love have been felt and shared and made the world a little brighter.


Annena said...

Thanks indeed for sharing. I have only watched/ read your story from afar - a FB post every once in a while since I'm not a regular FB user. I didn't start following this blog until a few months ago. And yet, having never met Cicily, your sharing her life and journey of death has uplifted me. Thanks for sharing your strength and vulnerability, your testimony and tears, and Cicily's fabulous smile, courage, and love of life! My prayers are with you and your family and I hope your celebration of her life tomorrow is beautiful.

Priceless said...

What a beautiful day today... the words and songs in Cicily's honor inspired and comforted a multitude of tender hearts,ours included. As Chris spoke of Cicily's power and purpose, I thought of you two and the power and purpose of the Temple endowment. You are wonderful and inspiring people and Mel and I will miss you too. We love you all. The Prices

diana said...

thank you for sharing her with all of us. ❤❤❤

Judy said...

Such a beautiful thing to write. I was just awed but everything you wrote. ❤️

HC Snell said...

You have done a wonderful job with this blog over the years, Janalyn, just as you have done a wonderful job with raising and taking care of Cis. She couldn't have had a better mother and father to see to her myriad of needs. You have always been joyful about taking care of her and reporting on her exploits to so many around the world. I am so proud of you for giving so many people the opportunity to see your family's example of love for each other and for all of those around you! Love you a bunch! Dad.